Family and Friends
I'm just going to start off with saying the mission is the hardest thing i have ever done. I went from doing nothing all day to now doing something every second of the day besides when I'm sleeping. Its good though because I'm finally starting my life and getting a great testimony and experience from it. When I got here I didn't hear my teacher speak one word of English to me. It was very hard to deal with. I'm not going to lie, I was not my self at all and was not a happy person for the whole first week and a half. I wondered if the mission was even worth what I was feeling. The language does not come easy to me and is the hardest part about being here. I obviously miss everyone so much but I know you will all be there when I come home. I feel like my testimony is so strong and I have so much to tell people but I just don't know how to say it to them and it gets so frustrating. I called my parents on Saturday and told them that I wanted to come home. It was something that I thought a lot about and knew that's what I wanted. But all it was, is me giving up on my self and the people that are waiting to hear what I have to say. I had a meeting with the district president and told him that i could not handle the language anymore. He told me that if it was bad enough that I was wanting to go home then we needed to fix it. I am now going to get reassigned somewhere that is English speaking. This is not what I thought would happen and when I heard that this was possible I was so excited that I didn't have to come home and could stay out here to spread the gospel. I know that where ever I get sent to that it is the right place for me. Praying is a huge part in the mission. Without gods help I don't know what I would do. He is always there to answer anything you want to know and help you with any problems you have. I know that without gods help I would be sitting at home right now wondering why I made such a big mistake of coming home. I have to thank my mom and dad and everyone else for not letting me give up and to keep pushing me no matter how hard it is. I get so much support from everyone back home. I get the most packages in the MTC. I love getting them and don't think I have gone a day without one. Are you guys trying to make me fat or something. Hah Its not working because me and my companion are both the same and we both run and work out everyday together, so sorry your plan didn't work. But you can keep sending stuff I have no problem with it. haha people always ask me what snacks I have gotten for the day and I share with them all. Pretty sure my family and friends are better then anyone else here. I find out where I'm going to go tonight or tomorrow. So if I cant write you guys back because its not my P-day I will have to tell my mom so that she can let you guys all know. I love you all and miss you like crazy. Keep being happy and giving me the support that has helped me through this whole thing. You don't understand how much it truly does mean to me. Thanks again and I hope to hear from you all soon. P.s we don't have a lot of time to write letters so I am trying to get back to everyone that is writing me so please have some Patience hah thanks.
Love Elder Patience